Losing the Upward Vision

Recently I read a devotion by Lysa Terkeurst which was an eye opener to me. I have a very bad habit. I fret when people do not respond to the love I show. Each of us have different way of expressing love. I do things for people without they asking me and I shower gifts on them. That is my perception of expressing love. I easily get hurt when people do not acknowledge what I do for them or give back love. I don't expect people to be thankful or be grateful. But I expect them to love me in return.

The devotion by Lysa Terkeurst opened my eyes to something which I never thought of. People who really love us will love us irrespective of the fact whether we do things as per their expectations or not.
Even if we fail to do things as per their expectations they are going to love us anyway. And people who don't really love us will not love us no matter how much we do...

Wow! I never thought of human attitude and behavior in this dimension. I was relieved. It gave me a kind of freedom that I really don't need to work hard to make people love me or even accept me.

Once my co-sister told me which I got reminded of..."Don't have your focus on people. Have your focus on Jesus knowing that He loves you and knows the person you are". Yeah! It is true that I lost my focus on the upward vision. I lost focus on the fact that Jesus loves me...He knows my heart, knows my thoughts, my intentions, motives, behaviors, actions and lack of response. He knows me in and out...

I need to only fear Him and please Him and stop the bad habit of trying to please people to get their love. I decided to change my focus upward.


Psalm 139
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.
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13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you.